HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUBBA

Today is my oldest brother's birthday! Happy birthday to my baby brother! I love you! I hope today the angels sing for you!

Birds and the Sun

I've been letting a lot of shit get to me lately. I try to fix everything for everyone. I worry so much about my family and my friends that I forget I need to take care of myself too. I put more effort into making everyone else happy than I do myself. With 8 kids that's usually a full time job; trying to make everyone happy. There is a train that runs through my backyard every morning at 5 am. It always wakes my 3 yr old up.

What the Fuck is Wrong With People?

So on October 19, 2014, 12 days before our third anniversary we decided that for our fifth anniversary we would do a vow renewal. Ever since then I have caught hell from everyone I have told about it. Either its a stupid idea, its a waste of their time, we don't deserve it, or I'm supposedly only doing it because my brother and his LOOOOOOOOOONNNNNGGGGGG time girlfriend are finally getting married. I was so looking forward to this and finally having my dream wedding. But it seems after getting my hopes up I may be cancelling it now and it's just not in the cards for me to have such a happy event of my own.

Body Image and Learning to Love Myself Again

My weight gain is a huge power struggle for me and myself. I have been trying to learn to love me again. To be selfish. To deal with my own demons.

Mom's Home and She Wants To Be An Asshole

So as obvious by my lack of posts I've been away. I would normally apologize but I don't really feel like I should have to anymore. I love having readers and trying to help others out but I can't rightfully say I am sorry for taking time on myself and my family.